ok, first things first, 2day! i swallowed a jolly rancher! (the hard ones) WHOLE! it hurt going down for a full 10 mins i believe! ph34r d4 p41n!!! *sniffles* lol umm...*coughs* have i mentioned ive been told im weird? lol ne wayz..on another bad note, it's bac to school! *GASP* NOOO *sighs* also...i virus somehow got onto my bros comp (the on im using currently...er..well most of the time) and he had to clean out the whole C drive. BIG MISTAKE............well on my part, i should've saved all my files. *clears throat* i had collected over 400 of the best i could find of anime. the time, the searching for hours that i would go thro to find new, and inspiring pics that i had never seen b4. the collection! *sniffles* so many, beautiful picz! alll gone now...one a bright side..i can have fun looking for them all over again! ^-^ *eh heh....*pouts* even worse, my stories, my inspiration, my creativity, my TO BE NOVELS! were, sadely, deleted. Some of my finest written yet. *pouts* and for some, strange, unknown reason, it doesnt affect me that much, if u told me a month ago, i would go, NOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOOOOO FOR GOD'S SAKE NOOOOOO DEAR GOD NOOOOOO I SPENT HOURS, HOURS, RACKING MY BRAIN, THOSE WERE STORIES THAT COULD ONLY BE WRITTEN ONCE! AND THEY'RE NEVER, NEVER, COMING BAC. *falls to ground in tears, pulls hair* yes...hmm i wonder wat's happening to my emotions and feelings, who will help me find them? or r they gone 4ever? it seems more often i have to search for wat im thinking.....but one thing i kno for sure, is that my love for the people closet to me, will never be lost and i will hold onto it with all my inner strenght. hopefully, that will save me from the nothing that is my thoughts.....(i wonder how i come up wid this stuff when supposidly i think of nothing?) oh yes! then there is still hope! ^-^ im stil here! *eh heh....oh well, im prob being over-dramatic, have a nice day! l8z! ^-^